Success or Just a Broken Promise?

Posted in Students on Mar 22, 2010 - 08:00 AM

Before the beginning of this school year, I made a promise to myself. I vowed that no matter what happened in my new school or whatever experiences I would have or problems I would encounter, I would not change who I was or what I believed in.

As the summer came to a close and the fifth of September rolled around, it seemed so surreal, it almost seemed like my class and I might actually just meet in our little classroom, and embrace each other like we did every year, and say how much we missed everyone, and have many conversations about all our adventures that summer. But it become apparently clear that this was not how it was going to happen. And somehow I ended up in a brand new school where I knew no one to hug or tell about my summer.

It also was harder to grasp than I think I realized, that I had really thrown myself into a brand new world where it seemed that not one person spoke my language. It also seemed as though change in myself was not possible. I was guarded and so intent on not losing my background in education that I was reluctant to get used to the method of teaching that I was experiencing now.

It's been nearly seven months since I first stepped foot into my new school. And I am proud to say I have met some wonderful people and enjoy them immensely. However, I have changed. Or at least I think I have. As finals come frighteningly close yet again, I find myself in a state of panic and stress. I played basketball this year on two teams, and because I was way too busy, my grades took a hit for it. I promised myself I wouldn't care about grades, but as I come close to losing high honors for the trimester, it is becoming more and more apparent how much I have changed.

So now I ask myself. Was I ignorant, or even a little stuck-up, to say I wouldn't change? Or is this a mark of my success in finally finding a place in my new high school?

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